Today I clicked on my blog URL (as I tend to do), and I got one of those non-sensical sites that talk about debt consolidation but have the words "journey" interspersed in it.
Of course, my heart sunk. Where the hell was my blog?! All those years ... all those words ... gone? Only to be replaced by a photo of some model who seems only too happy to be placed in an ad that serves as the gravesite for blogs lost?
Turns out, my domain had expired and I ignored the email which informed me that its time was nearly up. Thankfully, I was able to take immediate action (pay for another year) and feverishly kept on clicking the refresh tab until the girl on the couch showed up again.
It was weird timing. Tonight I've been missing things (I know, I know very general statement) and just feeling the sting of loss. You see, I did the stupid thing of searching for ghosts of boyfriends past on Facebook only to find that the one ex I didn't think would settle had in fact settled. I'm not even going to go about telling you how I found this wedding photo (hint: he's not actually on Facebook), but there it was staring back at me.
And all I could think was ... really? There is a theme in my life where I am finding that most of the men from my past have settled down, and yet to me it feels like we dated just yesterday (this seems to be a recurring theme of my life as I realized tonight when skimming my posts to make sure the google monster hadn't swallowed any of them up when they so rudely snatched them off the internet).
I don't know. Despite the strides I've made in my professional and adult life (home owner, what?), I just can't help but feel like such a juvenile when it comes to relationships with the opposite sex.
I suppose that if there is one thing that is apparent in my life, it's that I value the almighty baby step. Learning to trust the timing of things has proven to be difficult. But what this last year has taught me is that it is worth the wait ... and when you have it, you can't remember a time where you didn't.
And I guess that's something to look forward to.
And now I press "publish" with the confidence that you will read this and not be be linked to solutions on how to fix your debt.
One issue at a time, people.
