Same

It's not that I don't love you. It's just that I don't want anything to change. And change always happens. It's like the seasons. It has to happen.

So I stand back because if I keep moving forward with you or towards you or whatever, then things will not be exactly the way they are right now. When things change, someone is always left in the shadows. Growing together is hard because there is always the possibility that you will grow apart. Not intertwined. And we would grow apart, wouldn't we?

No, there's no need to think of what would happen because I know that right now it's not happening. So right now is what I am thinking of. And right now I am holding back because if I don't then I won't have any control with what happens next. The ball will be in your court and I am terrified of it not coming back to me.