Wide Eyes

There are things about my job that can lead me to feel a little bit stabby. Like, for example, when I say my goodbyes in June, there are certain people that I will not miss. Not even a little bit.

But, I have to admit that it's pretty fucking cool to be hanging out with kids all day long. I couldn't imagine myself doing anything else. I thought of becoming a principal and that was the main reason why I pursued my Master's degree, but I couldn't do it. Sit behind a desk all fucking day. Deal with parents. Only see the students because they are being shit heads. I could not do it.

The kids keep me young. They keep me from looking at things through pessimistic eyes. When I see things through their eyes, it's mind-blowing. And sad. Because growing up a lot of the time means that we lose that appreciation for life. We're in such a hurry to get from here to there, that we don't even stop to enjoy the ride. We forget our thankfulness. It's so forgotten that, let's face it, we need a holiday to remind us.

I want life to be exciting. Even the bad shit. All it means is that things are only going to get better -- and that's cause for excitement, right?

I have some things lined up to get me excited:

1) Taking a course downtown in July with a friend (being excited about this also makes me a geek).

2) Getting a tattoo!!!!! I now know EXACTLY what I want -- a phrase that encompasses everything that I have been trying to BE in the past couple of months. All I need is to figure out the lettering, and then that bitch is getting stamped on me! Oh, on my right hip.

3) I'm taking that vacation that I was meaning to take last year. France/England in August. So fucking long overdue. And 4 months can't come soon enough.

4) I'm surplused at my school, which means that I won't be there come September. This excites me because I will be getting the opportunity to work with new people in a new environment ... and to meet even more cool kids.

My life is exactly where it's supposed to be right now. And I'm loving every second of it.

I hope that you can say the same about yours, without fear or doubt.

:)