So today was a productive day.
I told a kid in my class during a presentation in the gym that if he didn't stop talking, I was going to put a muzzle on his face.
Any day where I threaten a humiliating act on a student is always a good day. In the least, it got a few laughs, including from the one who needed that damn muzzle.
It's very possible that I'm part Jamaican seeing as how the lovely knot at the nape of my neck that I can't comb through for the life of me feels like it is becoming a dread. Ya man.
Scooby Doo band-aids make my boo-boo's feel better.
I've decided that the saying, "Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer," is a bullshit saying because if I keep my enemies super close, I will punch their teeth out and then I would go to jail for assault. And that won't be a good thing at all.
What happens when who you once thought was a friend becomes a kind of enemy? Honestly, these days I'm a little disheartened. I'm losing faith in people. I'm losing faith in intentions. I'm unsure of my place ... unsure of what's going to happen.
I just wish I could go into further detail, but alas that monkey on my shoulder keeps reminding me that it's unpossible to be who I am and do what I do and be 100% open on this blog. It just can't happen.
In the afternoon, I gave my kiddos a work period since I've been piling it on them lately. I went to my nook and was working away on my computer when two girls came and sat by the desks near me. And then another came. And I couldn't have my back turned to them, turned to my work for longer than a few minutes at a time because I kept hearing, "Miss .... miss .... miss ....," everytime they wanted to talk to me or share something with me. It was annoying at first but then I just gave up. I turned my chair around and gave them my full attention. And then before I knew it, I had a crowd of about 10 kids surrounding me, hanging out and literally shooting the shit.
They found out some stuff about me. That I smoked cigarettes. And pot.
I found out some stuff about them. That I am going to miss them terribly when they graduate in 4 months. And, yeah, I might cry like a baby in front of them.
Anyways, don't expect a Fashion Friday post. I have lots of outfit ideas lined up on my Polyvore account, but I'm not feeling very creative these days. I'm not feeling a whole lot of anything these days.
So it goes.
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14 comments:
Interesting post..
Why give the time of day to keep your enermies close? Seriously that's a retarted saying.. Just cut them loose and forget they exist, why fuck around.
Mm Pot. Staying at a back packers at the moment. A german, israeli, englishman and my best friend... Shared some joints in a park near the ocean and just laid on the grass watching a huge thunder storm roll over head. I think you could do with something like this right now miss e.m.
it's ok to lose faith in anything and everything but yourself. keep the faith in you!
1. I LOVE the muzzle comment!
2. I completely agree that I also feel I can't be 100% open. Like I'd love to do TMI Thursdays, but for some reason with our occupation, I just feel like that might NOT be a good idea.
3. Sometimes you just HAVE to let your hair down and let the kids see that you are just another human.
4. I don't think you should keep your enemies too close. Otherwise they will just bug the shit out of you until you have no choice but to murder them and then you will be in prison and what good is that in the end??
5. I heart you more and more each day!!
Your kids are so lucky to have you...
HAHA! I'm telling you... I would have been the muzzle kid in your class...
you would have hated me. I'm sure of it.
What's great about the muzzle comment is that the kid laughed. And hopefully shut his trap.
I've never liked the keeping the enemy close saying. Super lameo if you ask me.
Um...the pot discussion?
How'd that happen? I'm chuckling, thinking of you working on that "dread" knot and inadvertently you start to humm, "pass the dutchie..." to which the kids, now surrounding you giggle and ask if you know what that song "is really about", and you reply. Yes. and yes I have. and don't tell or I will have to muzzle you.
I don't have much faith in people in general- this way, I'm sometimes pleasantly surprised.
I'm surprised you're even posting. I can barely comment on other people's blogs right now, I'm so meh.
The warmer weather will help and, if not, there's always alcohol. Hang in there, Cookie. We love you!
hang in there sweet girl...
you know where to go if you need to vent.
Like my brother, I'm curious how the kids found out about you smoking ciggies and pot. Did another teacher nark (sp?) on you? I wonder what pot would do to me?
Sucks that you're feeling you can't be honest with your feelings on your own blog.
I think it's great you will miss your kids. I'm sure that's a two way street.
I'm in the same boat in terms of "friends". I think that you're right, it's a good idea to keep your enemies closer. I'm so sick and tired of shady person.
Just remember, forgive but don't forget. That's what I'm doing anyway.
That's OK. Today, I told one of my kids to quit acting like and idiot. Then when another said something about having to come up to the front of the class cause he's so short, I replied, "compared to the girls, you sure are!" At that, the class burst out with,"OOOOOO! Burned by the teacher!" Sometimes there are things that just have to be said.
I hear you loud and clear on losing faith in people. As for keeping enemies close, I can't do that. because I can't stand them!
It has to get better, right?
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