So I just got back from the gym and my aforementioned assessment.
All I have to say is mother of fuck.
I was expecting my weight to be what it is, but when I stepped on that scale and the percentage of body fat flashed up there ... my jaw dropped a little. I will not be letting you know what it is because, frankly, I'm embarrassed and y'all are on a need to know basis and you really don't need to know how fat I am.
So, yeah, I have a lot of work ahead of me. But I am hopeful. And by hopeful, I mean that I will do this come hell or high water. If it means I have to spit up bile from being worked too hard, I will do this. If it means that the cells which make up my very existence will be in so much pain that they feel their only choice at revenge is to plot my death, I will do this.
In case you didn't get that ... I. Will. Do. This.
I bought sessions with a personal trainer and I bought sessions with a nutritionist. Basically, my piggy bank is being violated as we speak. For the next little while, my purse strings will need to be tighter than J. Lo's ass.
I spent a good hour talking to someone who looks like this
only bigger, hotter and hetero-er (with a tongue ring to boot). By the end of it, I was ready to include him in my will and hand over the deed to my house.
I tried very hard to be professional with him and I think I did a damn good job of it. Straight face throughout ... dirty thoughts only lasting a minimum of 5 seconds before I forced myself to focus on the conversation. But then he had to go ahead and touch my hand to emphasize a point he was making. Luckily this happened right near the end and I was busy looking at a form in front of me so he totally missed out on the sexual desire that was seeping through my eye sockets.
I have a training session tomorrow and a visit with the nutritionist on Tuesday. This is the year that I finish what I started last year with the bootcamp. This is the year that I start to swiffer away the beautiful mess that I've become.
So be it. And so it is.
7 hours ago
17 comments:
Good Job!!!!!!
I think it is great that you are doing it and know that it isn't at all cheap. You should feel really good about yourself. If the nutritionist gives any good hints/ideas,please share.
This may make me sound shallow, but hot trainers are worth every penny. There some extra unspoken motivation there.
Good for you!
So proud of you!
Hey, at least you know where your starting. Good luck, woman. It is money well spent.
First off, I'm going to say you're gorgeous and at the end of all of this, you'll look fabulous. You'll have to let me know how this whole trainer thing works out. I'm going to see how much I can do by myself, and then I'm going to call one of those people. :)
Eveything I know about you is nothing short of beautiful.
There's absolutely no need to spit bile. You can do it. As Lemmonex said, now you have a starting point and this where the work begins. You'll do it just fine.
Haha... I would drool over a hot trainer too! ;)
Good luck gurl... with the training and the vibes!!;)
I wish I get my spark back!!
Loved this post...my fav line --"This is the year that I start to swiffer away the beautiful mess that I've become."
Luck!!!!
I am proud of you for going with a trainer - I have one a couple times a week and it really helps...hang in there and know that you can do it and that you're amazing!!
I think Jilian is HOT.
I cant believe you gave her facial hair. That makes me sad.
I'm back on the workout wagon too. I know I won't get back to my stats in college (9-10% BF), but I'm really hoping I can make a dent.
I feel you, friend. I really do. And I'm proud of you. Yeah - it sucks to give money for someone to do something that technically we could do ourselves, but it's worth it in the end. For me, anyway. For some reason, I'm more commited if I'm shelling out cash.
p.s. did you quit twitter?
Apparently your "beautiful mess" is the reason behind wiping down the machines, no? I'd hate to slip on your sexual desire that oozed out your eyes and onto the trendmill! Those stains don't come out easy!
Could never do it so I am green with envy. I have no will power. Go kick some gym ass! (mmmmmm. hot trainer)
like bob, except hetero? yes please.
good luck honey!
You can do it!!!!
Great job!! It's so hard to get started-but getting started is the first step! All the best of luck to you.
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